Future

Thing that we do today make our future,
Something that change our live, forever..
We choose what we do now,
But the result is tomorrow..
We can’t regret thing’s that have been happened,
All we can just fix up our fools in the past,
Trying make something better than yesterday..
I know if I had done something bad in the past,
I don’t regret it, coz it makes me who I am now..
Maybe its not a good thing, but I know world is a perfect enoughto be living..
I’m not proud with fool’s thing I’d done
But I’m not shame with it, coz education and experience is build our forethought and character..
As a human being all we can do is pray, hope our path is the best choosen one..
And God always beside us when we step our path..
Praying we would be success as human being and personal satisfaction..
Hope God always blessing us, eveytime, and everywhere
GBU..

Broken...

We're trying to build a puzzle together
it's easy at the first, but getting harder and harder..
then someday we realize if there's some puzzle missing
so we must give up to finished it..

Our love is like that puzzle,
at the former, we're enjoy it, but when in the middle we get stressed and frustated..
We fight and argue about anything,
And in my heart there is something missing..

Love live is like a plane,
we often waiting in the terminal alone,
or our flight being cancelled or we must transit in foreign country,
and we found if we haven't reach the last terminal,
where I can go home and rest

This is what I feel today,
my journey must go on,
I still have another flight to go, wish me luck and hope I'll be safe till I'm coming home..

Confused!

For past few days we have,
It's been trough with lots of fight and hate..
I've been pushed you away, said "Go away, you deserve better than me,
Because I can't tolerate no more"
But you still beside me and says"I love you, always.."
I hurt you a lot with what I did and words that I said
Somebody told me-"love is like the wind
you can't see it, but you can feel it.."
Yes, I can feel if you're love me so much
I'm a person who have a heart
You showed what love means
But I always feel unsecure and scared
Denied if I'm in love with you and make sure if i'm fine without you
Trying to run but I always caught
With your smile and charm..
You're the only one who can make me laugh
when I don't even want to smile

We were given two hands to hold,
Two legs to walk,
Two eyes to see,
Two ears to listen,
But why only one heart?
Because the other one
was given to someone for us to find..
Is it you that I loking for..
Are you the right one for me..
I hope God give me a sign to make my life easier,
But I know if the descision is in my hand..
I fall on my knees and pray,
wished I can get the answer.. Someday..

what's wrong..?

Alone in my room, seeing my computer n thinking..
The reason I don't believe everyone,
maybe because my past, or I'm being arrogant with my life..
Everyone have their dream in their heart,
for themself and for somebody out there,
Am I wrong if I just care myself, and only myself,
is it a sin..

All I know, everything in this world is just an illusion,
everything can change as fast as u blink,
truth/lies is just a game in a life, and it's thin as a paper,
all thing the human said have blurr meaning,
everyone have flaws, nobodys perfect..

Love..
Love isn't hope, love isn't eternal feeling, love is too light
to be catch, to flexible to be trick,
love is illusion to be hold out..
Love is too beautiful to be loyal in the middle of this wonderful world's
that never stop showing something new..
Love make us dumb, and we're to naive to approve it..
And if love is blind, so this world must be full with a blind person..

My life is a journey in the darkness, there's no light..
I'm being blindfolded for so long time,
my heart become stoned and it broken apart so many times,
life in despair, got nothing to lose,
got nobody to belive in, and being underpreasured in my fam,
being a joker in front of my friends,
I'm living like a clown with no heart to be happy..
Can I be happy in my live?
Or should I live and pretend to be happy in this fake world?
I hope God can tell me the answer..
Coz, just in Him I gave all my heart and soul..

comic

.... dulu pas aq kecil, pertama kali baca comic tuh gara2 kakak aq, he3x pas sd,
... baca mari chan, doraemon, trus city hunter, dll dulu sih harga komik kalo nggak salah mulai dari IDR 3000 perak(sekarang sih mahal.. 12-15000, bahkan ada yang 20000)
kebiasaan itu kebawa sampe sekarang..

he3x, tapi sekarang banyak comic yg menurut aq jelek, baik itu dari segi gambar maupun cerita, belum lagi gara2 translation yg asal2an, bikin nggak niat baca...
Sekarang sih kebanyakan aq jarang beli comic lagi, soalnya selain mahal, juga seperti yg aq bilang, banyak penerbit yang pake translationnya asal2an n gambar jelek..
Aq lebih prefer untuk baca via net, free n lanjutannya cepet..
seperti onepiece yg nggak keluar2 kalo nungguin elex media sih sampe jamuran:p(just joke), yah aq kira2 dah baca sampe 2-3 buku kedepan, he3x.. kalo kalian ingin baca juga silahkan lihat di sini:
http://www.onemanga.com/
pilihannya banyak.. tapi translationnya inggris, yah itung2 latihan buat nambah vocabulary^_^

Pastel tutup-Chiken pot pie

Kuma kun.. makanan2 kesukaanmu dah ada resepnya, tungguin ya ntar aq coba bikinin he3x, untuk sekarang bersabar ya ama sop merah.. dkk:p

Btw, masakan yg kuma suka tuh repot, bahannya bejibun, tapi taste good kikiki.. tambah bulat aja kuma kun..luv u

Ingredients:
-Kentang – Potatoes
-Bawang Putih dipotong kecil2 - Garlic, minced
-Bawang bombay di potong kecil2 - Onion, minced
-Sosis sapi dipotong kotak2 di goreng - Beef Sausage, cut small square and fry, set aside
-Udang potong kecil2 - Shrimp, cut small
-Dada Ayam potong kecil2 diberi kecap asin - Chicken breast, cut small square and marinate with soy sauce, set aside
-Maling/Daging Asap dipotong kecil2 digoreng - Spam or smoked ham, cut small and fry, set aside
-Jamur Kuping direbus - Ear Mushroom
-Wortel potong kecil2 - Carrot, cut small
-Seledri potong kecil2 - Celery, cut small
-Kacang Polong - Green peas
-Soun direbus – Clear & thin noodle, boil
-Susu kental manis - Sweet condensed milk
-Kaldu Ayam - Chicken stock paste
-Mentega - Butter
-Garam Merica - Salt, pepper
-Pala - Nutmeg
-Keju Parmesan – Parmesan Cheese
-Kuning telur mentah - Egg yolk
-Telur rebus dipotong2 tipis - Eggs, boiled and slice thinly

Instructions:
1. Rebus kentang, setelah matang hancurkan dan campur dengan mentega dan pala
Boil potatoes and mashed with butter, add grated nutmeg, set aside
2. Goreng bawang putih dan bawang bombay, tambahkan udang dan ayam
Sautee minced garlic and onion, add shrimp and chicken
3. Tambahkan wortel dan jamur
When the chicken is half cooked, add carrot and mushroom
4. Masukkan sosis, maling, seledri dan kaldu ayam
After carrot is half cooked, add sausage, spam, celery and chicken stock
5. Setelah wortel matang, tambahkan soun an kacang polong
After carrot is cooked, add noodle, kacang polong
6. Masukkan garam, merica, pala, susu dan keju
Add salt, pepper, nutmeg, milk, cheese
7. Masukkan semuanya di mangkuk tahan panas
Put the cooked ingredients above in casserole dish (or any oven proof dish)
8. Tambahkan irisan telur rebus diatasnya
Put sliced boiled eggs on top of it
8. Campur kuning telur mentah di kentang
Add egg yolk (only, without the white) into the mashed potatoes, to make it not breaking out
9. Taruh kentang di atas piring berisi campuran ayam dsb
Add the mashed potatoes on top of the ingredients
10. Kuaskan kuning telur diatas kentang
Brush the egg yolk on top of the mashed potatoes
11. Tambahkan keju parut diatas
Add grated cheese on top of it
12. Dioven 375 derajat Farenheit sampai kekuningan
Oven 375 degree F until the top is brownish/yellowish

Sop Merah.. Yummy^_^(Tomato Soup)

1/2 kg lidah sapi, rebus sampai empuk lalu potong kecil, ox tongue,boiled and cut into small cubes
1 kaleng maling potong kecil2 & goreng, can of spam cut into small pcs and fry
2 biji dada ayam potong kotak2 kecil, pcs of chicken breast cut into small cubes
¼ kg udang, ½ lb shrimp
Sosis daging dipotong kecil2 & goreng, beef sausage cut into small pieces and fry
Jamur kuping, ear mushroom
Wortel dipotong kecil2, carrots cut into small pieces
Seledri, Celery
Kacang polong, peas

6-8 siung bawang putih dipotong2, garlic, chopped
1 bawang bombay dipotong2 , onion, chopped
3-4 bj tomat direbus, pcs of tomatoes – boil
1 kaleng saus tomat, can of tomato paste
1-2 sdm kaldu ayam, tbs chicken stock
1 sdm anggur merah / arak, tbs cooking wine
1 sdm saus inggris, tbs worcestershire sauce
1 sdt pala, tsp nutmeg
½ std merica, tsp pepper
Gula, garam, sugar and salt
Kecap asin, soy sauce
1 ½ sdm tepung maizena campur dgn air, tbs cornstarch mixed with water



Instructions:
1. Ayam & udang di marinate dengan kecap asin dan merica, biarkan beberapa menit
Marinate chicken with soy sauce and pepper
2. Panaskan minyak, masukkan bawang putih dan bawang bombay, kemudian ayam dan udang
Add garlic and onion into preheated oil. Add the marinated chicken, and shrimp
3. Masukkan perasan air dari tomat
Strain the tomato. Bring in the liquid from the boild tomatoes
4. Masukkan kaldu ayam dan wortel dan lidah sapi beserta air rebusan
Add in chicken stock and carrots and ox tongue with boiled water
5. Masukkan spam, sosis, jamur, saus tomat, gula, garam, pala
Add in spam, sausage, mushrooms, tomato paste, sugar, salt and nutmeg
6. Setelah wortel lunak, masukkan seledri dan kacang polong
When the carrots is soft, add in celery and peas
7. Masukkan maizena
Add in the cornstarch

Old friend

Gimana2 yg namanya orang tuh butuh temen alias sosialisasi..
Nah hari ini aq ketemu ama temen lama. Alo Diah.. dah lama nggak jalan bareng ma kamu, he3x, seneng benget..
Kita tuh udah temenan pas SMA kelas 1, sama2 1-F di Frateran.. Pertemanan kita tuh bisa dibilang deket, soalnya kita punya hobi yg sama, suka dengan namanya jurnalistik(sampe2 satu eskul n pas kelas 2 kita aktiv banget sampe kepilih buat jadi pengurus, Biasanya tuh rata2 kalo Diah jadi ketua, aq jadi wakil/sekretaris ato bendahara), suka benda2 keren, suka yg namanya buku, pernak pernik lucu(dari pensil warna, crayon, ketas2, dll) Trus ternyata nasib tetep nggak misahin kami di bangku kuliah ternyata kita sama2 satu kampus, n satu jurusan pula.. he3x tapi setelah selesai kul kita sempat lama nggak ketemu, soalnya aq ke Jakarta..
Nah, hari ini aq janjian ketemuan ama Diah di GE(Gramedia Expo), nah aq sampe dulu ceritanya n sempat ngeliat2 bentar, trus nggak lama flx aq bunyi..
"Haloo, alo.. dimana kamu.."
kresek2"udah "kresek2"di depan Yus"kresek2"kamu dimana?"
"ok, ok aq ke depan deh."tut..
aq cepet2 ke depan trus tengok kanan kiri.. kok nggak ada ya..
Diah pake baju apa ya, duhh bego banget nggak tanya.. Udah telpon aja pikir aq cepet2, aq ambil flx lalu tekan redial, nyambung.. tapi kok aq nelpon Kuma CP, aduhh salah pencet, buru2 matiin trus nelpon lg, n kali ini no Diah yg bener.. Susah masuk, busy..
Setelah beberapa lama akhirnya nyambung..
"Diah kamu dimana?"
"Aq didepan pintu masuk nih.."
Setelah sama2 tengok kiri kanan ternyata kita cuma beda beberapa langkah, he3x
Sampe2 diceletukin satpam"Mbak2, deketan kok masih telpon2nan", aduhhh malunya..
Setelah itu kita masuk ke dalam, liat2 buku, first impression, ternyata tempatnya GE tuh..LUAS, he3x banyak buku.. wow.. he3x
Aq beli buku lho, he3 terbitan Gagas media Love Fool(kayaknya lucu^_^)
Setelah muter2 sambil ngobrol2 kita sempat nyangkut di 1 stan, yg nawarin Electronic Dictionary(drolling2.. tes2.. ngilel.. mau..) menarik banget.. bisa 5 bahasa Indonesia, Inggris, Mandarin, Korea, Jepang, trus kelebihannya banyak, bisa touch screen, bisa buat latihan tulisan mandarin segala, bisa bersuara, kapasitas memory sampe4-8giga, bisa nyimpan gambar, bisa nyetel mp3 n mp4.. wua.. pokoknya banyak.. TAPI.. yg bikin aq ilang selera tuh harganya.. MAHALLLL, 2,6 juta.. hiks2..
Aq bisa ngeliat kl Diah juga tertarik buat beli, tapi aq pikir mahal, walau tuh mbak2 bilang ini yang barangnya dah mau abis n dll, tapi kalo akhirnya tuh barang nggak kepake kan sayang, setelah itu aq bilangin Diah buat pikir2 dulu n lihat2 yang lain.
Nah abis dari sana ternyata kita sama2 lapen n berhubung disana nggak ada tempat makan yg menurut kita nyaman kita pindah tempat, ke TP..
Nah di jalan.. aq dapet telepon.. LILY di caller ID, wah nggak biasanya nih pikir aq, nggak pake lama aq angkat,"Alo li, ada apa?Tumben"Sampil nyetir..
"YUUSSS, mobil lu bannya kempes, lu di depan Xerox kan.. Di jalan Basuki Rahmat.."
"Ehh.. Iya.. Iya.."kaget aq, dikasih tau kayak gini..
Abis gitu aq tembel ban di deket Citibank, apes bener pikir aq..
Setelah aq selesai nambal ban, baru deh nyusul Diah di TP, Diah sempat kuatir sih, soalnya kok aq nggak sampe2, abis aq kasih tau kalo ban aq bocor, malah Diah ngerasa kuatir banget..(Diah.. lua nggak beruhah, dari SMA bawaannya suka panik, lu tuh baek deh^_^)
Kita akhirnya makan di Link cafe, aq makan nasi goreng jawa, diah pesen galantin+nasi putih, minumnya.. TEH dong.. he3x
Aq sempat sms ma Lily, thanks banget ya li.. Lu baek banget deh^^
Setelah kenyang kita nggak langsung cabut jalan, setelah ngobrol ngarul ngidul, tentang kerjaan, potensi kerjaan, bayaran kerja(yg layak dan sepantasnya^^), tentang cowok, mak comblang,etc.. pokoknya buanyaaakk deh^_^
Kita baru cabut n jalan2, kita tuh sama 2 satu hobi, dan bisa dibilang punya taste yg mirip..(Senangnya ada yg satu hati ma aq^^)
Bisa dibilang kita tuh suka window shopping, soalnya ngeliat doang nggak beli, he3x.. Tapi seneng^^PUAS BANGET!!
Setelah keliling2 n meriksa semua lantai SOGO, kikiki.. akhirnya kita mutusin buat pulang..
Thank ya Diah 4 this lovely day.. sometimes me must go 4 another window shopping..^_^

Your call..-Secondhand Serenade

Waiting for your call, I'm sick, Call I'm angry
Call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Stripped and polished, I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious, you and me, flesh to flesh
Cause every breath that you will take
When you are sitting next to me
Will bring life into my deepest hopes,
What's your fantasy?
(What's your, what's your...)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

And I'm tired of being all alone,
and this solitary moment makes me want to come back home
[X4]
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have)

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight

Cause I was born to tell you I love you
And I am torn to do what I have to, to make you mine
Stay with me tonight
(I know everything you wanted isn't anything you have

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0rgInHvW8Ic

Separated-Usher

If love was a bird
Then we wouldn't have wings
If love was a sky
We'd be blue
If love was a choir
You and I could never sing
Cause love isn't for me and you

If love was an Oscar
You and I could never win
Cause we can never act out our parts
If love is the Bible
Then we are lost in sin
Because its not in our hearts

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life,and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well,and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

If love was a fire
Then we have lost the spark
Love never felt so cold
If love was a light
Then we're lost in the dark
Left with no one to hold

If love was a sport
We're not on the same team
You and I are destined to lose
If love was an ocean
Then we are just a stream
Cause love isn't for me and you

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

Girl I know we had some good times
It's sad but now we gotta say goodbye
Girl you know I love you, I can't deny
I can't say we didn't try to make it work for you and I
I know it hurts so much but it's best for us
Somewhere along this windy road we lost the trust
So I'll walk away so you don't have to see me cry
It's killing me so, why don't you go

So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well, and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off, separated

Download J-pop

Kalo ada yang tertarik untuk download lagu2 j-pop or j-rock yg baru, ok n Free gw nemu site yg bagus nih:

http://j-pop-rock.com/rotation/jpoprockmusicrotation.htm

check it out!!^_^

Lamaran... Kerja^_^

Waktu kecil kalo ditanya, "Mau jadi apa?"

Pasti jawabannya banyak, "Mau jadi dokter, arsitek, pilot,dll"

Yah namanya anak kecil, ngeliat orang dewasa tuh keren banget, pagi2 bangun, trus udah rapi n wangi berangkat kerja.. Pulang bawa duit buat ngidupin keluarga.

Tapi begitu udah gede?!

Beda banget.. Bangun pagi susah(apa gw yg berada di bagian bumi yang salah..??)

Kl pergi selalu rapi, modis dan wangi(so pasti)..

Tapi kalo ditanya, "Mau jadi apa?"

Gw dengan lantang pasti akan jawab,"Mau jadi anak TK ato SD deh, umur 5-7 taonan!" dengan lantang..



He3x..

Pasti heran kan, anak kecil ingin cepet2 gede biar bisa keren, dewasa, dan.. mandiri.

Tapi gw ngerasa kalo masa paling bahagia menurut gw tuh pas waktu gw kecil..

Nggak usah repot mikirin kerja, makanan ada, uang jajan dikasih ortu, main mulu, paling belajar dikit, trus bobok sepuasnya.

Nah seneng banget kan..



But time passing by,

Left my childhood as a wonderful memory,

now I must took a step to the future,

where everything look so blur and unsure..

God, bless me your beloved child



Kalo ada temen2 yang pengen tau gimana buat surat lamaran kerja, gw dapet beberapa contoh yang bagus nih, beserta tips n tricknya:

http://ziru.acidblog.net/storages/2007/02/04/surat-lamaran-pekerjaan/

Feel..

Kuruma no naka sotto

Kami wo nadete kureta

Kimi no te no nukumori

Ima mune wo atsuku shiteku

Futari dakeno kuukan

Himitsu no toki ga sotto

Hashiri dasu kimochi

Watashi wo oita mama de...

Why tell me why

Nandomo kimi kara no mail wo

Yomikaeshite mo fuan ga osou

Why tell me why

Kimi he no omoi

Kotoba nanka de tsutaerare nai kara

Now I know the way that I take the music

You know something happened and dancing inside me

Yes I want you to feel my heart

Close your eyes

Feel it Feel it Feel it

Remember everything

Yes the way that I take the music

You know something happened and dancing inside me

Feeling free and just close to me That’s all

Now you know what I’m saying

it’s easy thing to get my feel

“Dousureba ii no?”

Mata kimi wo komaraseteru

Hontou wa kimi toko no mama

Issho ni itai dake no koujitsu...

Bukiyou nasei da ne

Hontou no kimochi nante kantan ni tsutawara nai

Sore ga renai na no ka na?

Why tell me why

Osoroi de tsuketeru yubiwa ga aru no ni

Why tell me why

Tsumara nai koto de kigen waruku shite koukai de

“Korekara mo zutto issho ni iyou ne”

Sunao ni ieta hi

Kimi kara no henji wa “itsumo soba ni iru yo”

my pals

with my friend(hendy"kuma kun",alex"big boss",liana"cute")

ini bikinnya penuh perjuangan boo..
pake timer..
but worth it^_^
























ini pas lani b'day, girl only..
abis makan2 d lumbung trus ke kolam bebek..
tk kok nggak ada bebeknya ya:p

my birthday..

ini pas aq ultah, bulan lalu..
makacih banget ya kuma kun, he3x..
you made unforgettable birthday 4 me,
masakannya jg yummy banget..
oh ya nita..
thank's banget ya kadonya..













ini kuma san..
penghuni kamar gw yg baru,
dapet dari kuma kun..
pengganti kuma kun kl lg kelilingan
(temen gw yg empuk dan hangat..^_^)

romance

you taugh me how to laugh again

and give me back my smile,

restored my faith in people

when everyone seemed vile

you were as if the sun came up

upon my bitter night

and bade the blackness rustle up

some joyful morning light

and inexplicably my heart

rose up and twirled me round,

so sudden in its expert art

I scared touch the ground

with you I am filled with light

and all my feeling dance

you are my song, my wings,

my flight, my truth..

and my romance

think of you...

with the start of new each new day,

I find myself thinking of you...

In the midddle of my busyday

my mind wanders and I think of you...

out of nowhere I see your smile,

hear your laugh and think of you...

life is beautiful now

because I fall in love all over again

each time I think of you...

Number..

"Umur berapa?"
"Anak keberapa?"
"Nilai test lu berapa?"
"Tinggi lu berapa?"
"Berat kamu berapa?"

Ini pertanyaan yang umum diucapkan waktu orang berumur belum twenty-something..
Dan ini pertanyaan yang umum ditanyakan setelah org berumur twenty-something..

"Kerja apa?"
"Gaji sebulan berapa?"
"Naek apa kesini? Oo mobil.. Mobil kamu apa?"

Nah mulai ngerti nggak topik yg akan gw bahas?
Kalo dulu waktu kita2 masih kecil(istilahnya dinafkahi ortu) pertanyaan tentang angka tuh paling2 berkisar masalah umur, berat badan, tinggi badan, dan yang vital tuh nilai test ama raport(itu yg gw rasain dulu waktu masih duduk di bangku sekolah)

Nah begitu udah lulus dari bangku kuliah, pertanyaan orang2 tuh mulai berubah..
Paling umum tuh masalah kerja yang ujung2nya tuh pasti DUIT. Ini nih yang gw nilai nggak fair, emang orang yang dinilai dari kerjanya nggak seberapa dengan penghasilan yang nggak seberapa doang.

Taukan anda bahwa orang yang paling kaya di dunia adalah William GatesIII alias Bill Gates yang punya Microsoft itu lho.. Dengan total kekayaan lebih dari 59 billion dollar(please jgn di kurs ke mata uang IRD, tuh duit rasanya bisa dengan gampang buat beli negara kita beserta hutang2nya, malah masih lebih2) Tapi berhubung dia orang luar n gw nggak kenal, gw nggak mau bahas dia lebih lanjut, cukup ngiler liat kekayaan yg dia punya aja, so next..

Apakah berapa uang yang dihasilkan mempengaruhi nilai seseorang sebagai manusia?
Apakah uang banyak menjamin bahwa orang itu berkualitas?
Apakah uang dapat menilai kebaikan orang yang memilikinya?
Maybe yes, maybe not..

Mengingat kita hidup di dunia yang segala sesuatunya dinilai dari material ini, gw cuma bisa bilang..
"Mungkin kita bisa hidup berkat uang"(Bayangin aja, kalo lu mau makan, minum, pake baju, bahkan buang air pun lu tetep butuh alat tukar yg satu ini" MONEY", kecuali lu hidup di hutan dengan swadaya n swasembada diri lu sendiri)

Yup, duit tuh ngaruh banget di dalam kehidupan, dengan duit lu bisa beli apapun yg kamu inginkan, tapi apakah karena kamu punya duit trus kamu bisa ngerendahin orang lain seenak udel lu? Buat gw cuma satu jawabannya"Nggak"

Gw akuin kalo dengan uang, orang bakal punya kuasa, harta, perusahaan n kehidupan yg layak, but semua itu juga ada konsekuensinya, dalam hidup ini ada take n give.. Kurangnya rasa aman, privacy dan hilangnya ke murnian suatu hubungan bila berkaitan denga uang adalah semua konsekuensi yang harus diterima.

Tapi sebagai manusia kita nggak boleh nilai orang lain dengan harta(in somecase, mungkin bisa), but not all. Manusia tuh makhluk yang tergantung ama orang lain, jd jgn pernah ngerendahin org laen kalo lu nggak pengen direndahin(ingat hukum timbal-balik).

ex. Kamu punya perusahaan, karyawan lu banyak, duit berlebih, yah pokoknya impian semua orang tentang impian hidup deh. Tapi apa dengan punya semua itu kamu bisa nge-judge orang laen? NO, biarpun itu adalah bawahan lu sendiri. Sekarang kamu pikir deh, apa jadinya perusahaan kamu tanpa mereka, yang lu anggap cuma bawahan n bagi lu nggak penting.. Memang diluar sana masih banyak orang yg butuh pekerjaan, tapi bukan dengan begitu kamu bisa injak2 mereka. Kalo sampe semua karyawan loe mogok kerja, apa loe bisa nanganin semuanya sendiri? Pasti nggak kan..

So gw cuma mau bilang..
"Hello!! You're not the only person who live in this planet. N the universe doesn't rotate with you as the centre. Everybody have their own world.. so appreciate it."

My luv..

1st. My fam.. Of course..

2nd. My car n every activities that i'd done

3rd. This man: lovely kuma kun^_^


4th. All my friend

LooK

"Have you ever feeling bored with something?"
"Hell, yeah"

Sapa sih yang nggak pernah bosen..

Baek itu makanan, aktivitas, baju, omongan, suatu hubungan, bahkan hidup itu sendiri..
Kadang gw mikir kok rasanya hidup gw stuck gini sih, kapan neh muter lagi, kok bosen nggak ada tantangan nih, kok hubungan gw ama co gw kok gitu2 aja yah, dsb. Trus gw mikir kok ada yah orang yg bisa married trus happily ever after(kayak ortu gw, yah walau kadang dalam setiap keluarga ada aja masalah, pasti happy ending). Sedangkan kadang gw pacaran aja, kadang bisa ngerasa bosen.. Apa gw yg kelainan?! NGGAK LAH.. gw masih normal kok, n gw bisa pastiin di luar sana banyak yg ngalamin seperti yg gw alamin ini.

Hari ini nih, salah satu hari yg sangat ngebosenin buat gw, gmn nggak malem mingguan, pacar malah ngilang(yah urusan keluarga sih, jd.. no comment). Pagi2 buta nyokap nelpon, bangunin(bayangin jam 4.00AM) kayak nggak tau kl anaknya tuh ada darah2 kalelawar gitu yg demen tidur subuh.. yah emang lagi ada kepentingan sih, gw mesti nganter istri kakak gw ke bandara.
Nah pulang2 dr bandara kok peruk krucuk2 ya.. Alarm laper nih.. Sebelom pulang gw muter2 kota Surabaya buat nyari makan, pengennya masakan padang.. Tapi resto padang mana yg buka jam 5.00AM(kalo ada yg buka bisa2 yg dijual tuh gulai jeroan manusia kali, kalo nggak pegawainya tuh merangkap satpam)

Akhirnya pelarian gw hentikan, krn menurut gw nggak bakalan deh nemu, dengan sangat terpaksa gw puasin perut ini dgn beli nasi bungkus di deket rumah. Gw beli nasi isi daging masak bali, sate, trus lemper, nasi kusing, n nasi campur(gile banyak bener) Eit, jgn salah sangka, ini gw beli banyak buat makan siang, makan malem n pembokat gw dirumah.

Abis makan dengan kenyang.. gw lanjutin tidur gw yang keputus tadi pagi.. Cuma 1-2 jam doang gw bangun n cabut lagi, niatnya sih pengen nyari cd lagunya "secondhand serenade". Udah gw bela2in ke Aquarius di depan St.Louis sono taunya.."Maap mbak, belon ada" Ya udah pulanglah gw dengan lesu..

Siangnya, gw pergi ke Sutos sendirian(ini salah satu hobby gw, pergi2 sendiri.. soalnya males banget kl disuruh nungguin org lain demi kepentingan gw, gw kan bkn org egois he3x) Satu tujuan gw.. NONTON, soalnya nih town square masih baru jd counter2 yg buka baru dikit, nggak nyaman buat window shopping(kurang banyak gitoo yg diliat..)

Abis beli tiket XL Antara Aku, Kau dan Mak Erot, gw beli permen tic tac(orange) n orange juice..
Nah sambil nunggu film dimulai gw makan tuh permen banyak2.. N ngerasa.. BOSEN
Berhubung hari ini malem minggu so pasti banyak couple ato ABG yg rame2 nonton bareng. Setelah gw ngabisin tuh tic tac, kotaknya kan berwarna orange transparan gitu.. Iseng gw kumat.. Gw ngeliat org2 yg lalu lalang melalui kotak eks tictac gw.. KOK beda ya.. Lucu.. Ngeliat semuanya jadi berwarna orange, coba kalo coklat sephia pasti kayak film jaman baehula pikir gw.

Nah gw mulai mikir, ternyata hidup tuh benernya nggak ngebosenin, cuma tergantung dari sisi mana n pake apa lu ngeliatnya..

Banyak orang yang ngoleksi kaca mata(berbagai macam warna dan gaya), potong rambut yg super ektrem(biar cool abis ato jayus:p), ngelakuin hal yg aneh2, dsb. Menurut gw salah satu alasan mereka pasti bosen.. ato beda dengan yg laen(iyalah sebagai manusia semua orang pengen diakuin sebagai individu)

"You're just a man to the world, but you're the world for me"
anymous

Kalo sampe ada orang yg ngomong kayak gini ma orang laen, dijamin deh pasti lu nggak bakalan ngerasa hidup lu tuh ngebosenin..
n yakinlah..

"there's someone outhere, thinking that you're the centre of the universe"

ups.. gotta go, film gw mau mulai..
ciao..

Hate?!

It's a shame that it had to be this way
It's not enough to say I'm sorry
It's not enough to say I'm sorry

Maybe I'm to blame
Or maybe were the same
But either way I can't breathe
Either way I can't breathe

All I had to say is goodbye
Were better off this way
Were better off this way

I'm alive but I'm losing all my drive
Cause everything were been through
And everything about you
Seemed to be a lie
A guiltless twisted lie
It made me learn to hate you
Or hate myself for letting it pass by

"Secondhand Serenade-Goodbye"

Kernerman English Multilingual Dictionary (Beta Version) - Cite This Source - Share This hate [heit] verb
to dislike very muchExample: I hate them for their cruelty to my father; I hate getting up in the morning.
Arabic:يَكْرَه
Chinese (Simplified):恨
Chinese (Traditional):討厭, 恨
Czech:nenávidět
Danish:hade
Dutch:haten
Estonian:vihkama
Finnish:vihata, inhota
French:détester
German:hassen
Greek:μισώ
Hungarian:gyűlöl
Icelandic:hata
Indonesian:membenci
Italian:odiare
Japanese:憎む
Korean:몹시 싫어하다
Latvian:ienīst; neciest
Lithuanian:ne(pa)kęsti
Norwegian:hate, avsky
Polish:nienawidzieć, nie znosić
Portuguese (Brazil):detestar, odiar
Portuguese (Portugal):odiar
Romanian:a urî, a detesta
Russian:ненавидеть
Slovak:nenávidieť
Slovenian:sovražiti
Spanish:odiar, detestar, aborrecer
Swedish:hata, avsky
Turkish:nefret etmek

I hate my job,
I hate this city,
I hate waiting,
I hate yellow,
I hate him,
I hate you...

Kata2 diatas pasti sering deh kita denger..Pasti dunk pernah ngerasain perasaan ini, entah itu karena kesal ama orang atau sesuatu(entah itu teman, fam, ato jangan2 makhluk yg namanya 'cowok'). Apa sih benernya hate ato indonesianya tuh "benci" itu..Bener2 cinta, kata orang tua(masa sihh..), menurut KBBI(Kamus Besar Bahasa Indonesia,1994) benci tuh sama dengan sangat tidak suka.

Kalo pernah ngerasain yg namanya fall in love ma orang trus putus, bisa jadi berakhir dengan rasa yang satu ini, ato dijahatin ma orang, kerjaan yang numpuk, nungguin orang ampe bulukan, ato jangan2 gara2 nonton sinetron trus sampe rasanya pengen marah2 gara2 ngeliat akting aktris/aktor yang nyebelin banget(ini mah udah diluar batas kewajaran, walaupun banyak juga sinetron2 Indonesia yg make cara ini buat ninggiin rating penonton).

Benci=sampah

Sekarang aku pengen ngebahas ini nih, berapa lama sih kamu nggak suka ama seseorang.. sehari, 2 hari, seminggu, sebulan, ato mungkin bahkan taunan.. Dan nggak ada batasan untuk sebuah kata benci..

Tapi kalo dipikir secara nalar dan rasional, bukannya pake emosi doang.."pentingkah benci"??!
Yeah, I know It's sucks when somebody hurt you so bad, cheated on you, dumped you for no reason, made fun of you.. yeah he/she deserves to be hated

Maybe if you heard his/her name, there's a dark cloud above you, If you must said something or give him/her testimonial you would said he's/she's bastard/bitch, If someone gave you his/her photo, you will tear it into tiny pieces..

Dan tanpa disadari, rasa benci ini menumpuk terus dan terus.. Entah itu cuma sebentar ataupun tahunan, seperti penyakit bawaan . Yang bikin kita jelek, ato ngerasa nggak sehat.. Sekarang gw cuma mau nanya 1 hal.. "Aren't you tired spending years hating him/her?"

May be this is the right time to over it.. Ngebuang segala sampah yang menggunung di hati loe, belajar maafin dia dan belajar untuk memaafkan diri kita sendiri. Memang susah sih.. Tapi pikir deh, hidup lu rasanya terlalu berharga untuk terus membenci dia. Hating him/her for years? It's such a waste..

Everyone makes mistakes, even it once in a life time.. Hey, it's normal, we're only human, not an angel.. Mungkin kita bukan melakukan kesalahan padanya, tapi kita pasti pernah kan berbuat kesalahan pada orang laen..

Just try...

Untuk ngebersihin hati kamu dari segala sampah kebencian sama seseorang, mungkin ini nggak akan bikin kamu puas, you can forgive but not forget, yeah soalnya sampe sekarang masih belom ada orang yg bener2 nemuin cara buat turn back time supaya kita nggak perlu ngejalanin semua yang bikin kita sakit hati, even itu hipnotis, itu benernya cuma mengunci memori kita aja.. ATO jangan2 hati loe udah bener2 beku karena kelamaan benci dia??

Just remember, Nobody's perfect..

You can do it, you can continue your live, live must go on..
..coz I do.

Now...

future is mystery,
past is memory ,
n present is eternity.. so wake up n work NOW!!

He3x, ini tulisan pertama di blog aq..
Benernya pengen bikin dari dulu2, tapi entah kenapa rasanya nggak PD.. Tapi hari ini berhubung udah kepencet, jadi mau nggak mau ya udah isi aja sekalian..
Lagi mengalami malam2 insomnia yang nggak lewat2(kalo siang jadi kalong, kalo malem jadi vampire.., buset apaan tuh?!) Ingin ngerjain tugas bikin gambar rumah yang diminta ma temen gw(yg hobinya minta tolong tanpa memberi imbalan, gw pamrih nih sampe nggak tega buat nyiksa otak gw buat ngerancangin tuh rumah, abis setiap minta tolong di bayar ama "thank's" doang[yg ngerasa harap maklum ya, ini emosi sesaat]Tapi benernya juga nggak ada ide sih, jadi daripada layar kompi gw cuma item mulu liatin programnya Autocad tapi nggak ada apa2nya, stress gw..

Sambil ngedengerin albumnya "Secondhand Serenade", mikirin hidup gw yg rasanya nggak muter sejak kelar kuliah, pengen kuliah lagi(udah apply sana sini, pengen nyusul kakak di negeri yg nun jauh disana..padahal amrik doang) tapi belum keluar2 juga keterima pa nggak, yah doain aja moga2 cepet berangkat. Pengen belajar program buat design lagi biar gw tambah pinter, tapi mahal bow n gw rada nggak tega minta ortu(nabung...abis dah angpau gue masuk celengan, he3x angpau dari nyokap doang).

Bt nggak ada ide, mana besok valentine.. nggak ada acara.. arggghhh pusing... Mending sekarang mikir gimana caranya supaya bisa cepet bobok, daripada ntar tengah hari collapse, mana blood pressure udah 110/70(kata orang ini udah termasuk golongan darah rendah, mengingat normalnya 120-139 or 80-89)

Oh tidak rupanya hari udah berganti, ini dah tanggal 14 n ini udah jam 5 pagi... tau deh c yaa later..