Broken...

We're trying to build a puzzle together
it's easy at the first, but getting harder and harder..
then someday we realize if there's some puzzle missing
so we must give up to finished it..

Our love is like that puzzle,
at the former, we're enjoy it, but when in the middle we get stressed and frustated..
We fight and argue about anything,
And in my heart there is something missing..

Love live is like a plane,
we often waiting in the terminal alone,
or our flight being cancelled or we must transit in foreign country,
and we found if we haven't reach the last terminal,
where I can go home and rest

This is what I feel today,
my journey must go on,
I still have another flight to go, wish me luck and hope I'll be safe till I'm coming home..

Confused!

For past few days we have,
It's been trough with lots of fight and hate..
I've been pushed you away, said "Go away, you deserve better than me,
Because I can't tolerate no more"
But you still beside me and says"I love you, always.."
I hurt you a lot with what I did and words that I said
Somebody told me-"love is like the wind
you can't see it, but you can feel it.."
Yes, I can feel if you're love me so much
I'm a person who have a heart
You showed what love means
But I always feel unsecure and scared
Denied if I'm in love with you and make sure if i'm fine without you
Trying to run but I always caught
With your smile and charm..
You're the only one who can make me laugh
when I don't even want to smile

We were given two hands to hold,
Two legs to walk,
Two eyes to see,
Two ears to listen,
But why only one heart?
Because the other one
was given to someone for us to find..
Is it you that I loking for..
Are you the right one for me..
I hope God give me a sign to make my life easier,
But I know if the descision is in my hand..
I fall on my knees and pray,
wished I can get the answer.. Someday..

what's wrong..?

Alone in my room, seeing my computer n thinking..
The reason I don't believe everyone,
maybe because my past, or I'm being arrogant with my life..
Everyone have their dream in their heart,
for themself and for somebody out there,
Am I wrong if I just care myself, and only myself,
is it a sin..

All I know, everything in this world is just an illusion,
everything can change as fast as u blink,
truth/lies is just a game in a life, and it's thin as a paper,
all thing the human said have blurr meaning,
everyone have flaws, nobodys perfect..

Love..
Love isn't hope, love isn't eternal feeling, love is too light
to be catch, to flexible to be trick,
love is illusion to be hold out..
Love is too beautiful to be loyal in the middle of this wonderful world's
that never stop showing something new..
Love make us dumb, and we're to naive to approve it..
And if love is blind, so this world must be full with a blind person..

My life is a journey in the darkness, there's no light..
I'm being blindfolded for so long time,
my heart become stoned and it broken apart so many times,
life in despair, got nothing to lose,
got nobody to belive in, and being underpreasured in my fam,
being a joker in front of my friends,
I'm living like a clown with no heart to be happy..
Can I be happy in my live?
Or should I live and pretend to be happy in this fake world?
I hope God can tell me the answer..
Coz, just in Him I gave all my heart and soul..

comic

.... dulu pas aq kecil, pertama kali baca comic tuh gara2 kakak aq, he3x pas sd,
... baca mari chan, doraemon, trus city hunter, dll dulu sih harga komik kalo nggak salah mulai dari IDR 3000 perak(sekarang sih mahal.. 12-15000, bahkan ada yang 20000)
kebiasaan itu kebawa sampe sekarang..

he3x, tapi sekarang banyak comic yg menurut aq jelek, baik itu dari segi gambar maupun cerita, belum lagi gara2 translation yg asal2an, bikin nggak niat baca...
Sekarang sih kebanyakan aq jarang beli comic lagi, soalnya selain mahal, juga seperti yg aq bilang, banyak penerbit yang pake translationnya asal2an n gambar jelek..
Aq lebih prefer untuk baca via net, free n lanjutannya cepet..
seperti onepiece yg nggak keluar2 kalo nungguin elex media sih sampe jamuran:p(just joke), yah aq kira2 dah baca sampe 2-3 buku kedepan, he3x.. kalo kalian ingin baca juga silahkan lihat di sini:
http://www.onemanga.com/
pilihannya banyak.. tapi translationnya inggris, yah itung2 latihan buat nambah vocabulary^_^

Pastel tutup-Chiken pot pie

Kuma kun.. makanan2 kesukaanmu dah ada resepnya, tungguin ya ntar aq coba bikinin he3x, untuk sekarang bersabar ya ama sop merah.. dkk:p

Btw, masakan yg kuma suka tuh repot, bahannya bejibun, tapi taste good kikiki.. tambah bulat aja kuma kun..luv u

Ingredients:
-Kentang – Potatoes
-Bawang Putih dipotong kecil2 - Garlic, minced
-Bawang bombay di potong kecil2 - Onion, minced
-Sosis sapi dipotong kotak2 di goreng - Beef Sausage, cut small square and fry, set aside
-Udang potong kecil2 - Shrimp, cut small
-Dada Ayam potong kecil2 diberi kecap asin - Chicken breast, cut small square and marinate with soy sauce, set aside
-Maling/Daging Asap dipotong kecil2 digoreng - Spam or smoked ham, cut small and fry, set aside
-Jamur Kuping direbus - Ear Mushroom
-Wortel potong kecil2 - Carrot, cut small
-Seledri potong kecil2 - Celery, cut small
-Kacang Polong - Green peas
-Soun direbus – Clear & thin noodle, boil
-Susu kental manis - Sweet condensed milk
-Kaldu Ayam - Chicken stock paste
-Mentega - Butter
-Garam Merica - Salt, pepper
-Pala - Nutmeg
-Keju Parmesan – Parmesan Cheese
-Kuning telur mentah - Egg yolk
-Telur rebus dipotong2 tipis - Eggs, boiled and slice thinly

Instructions:
1. Rebus kentang, setelah matang hancurkan dan campur dengan mentega dan pala
Boil potatoes and mashed with butter, add grated nutmeg, set aside
2. Goreng bawang putih dan bawang bombay, tambahkan udang dan ayam
Sautee minced garlic and onion, add shrimp and chicken
3. Tambahkan wortel dan jamur
When the chicken is half cooked, add carrot and mushroom
4. Masukkan sosis, maling, seledri dan kaldu ayam
After carrot is half cooked, add sausage, spam, celery and chicken stock
5. Setelah wortel matang, tambahkan soun an kacang polong
After carrot is cooked, add noodle, kacang polong
6. Masukkan garam, merica, pala, susu dan keju
Add salt, pepper, nutmeg, milk, cheese
7. Masukkan semuanya di mangkuk tahan panas
Put the cooked ingredients above in casserole dish (or any oven proof dish)
8. Tambahkan irisan telur rebus diatasnya
Put sliced boiled eggs on top of it
8. Campur kuning telur mentah di kentang
Add egg yolk (only, without the white) into the mashed potatoes, to make it not breaking out
9. Taruh kentang di atas piring berisi campuran ayam dsb
Add the mashed potatoes on top of the ingredients
10. Kuaskan kuning telur diatas kentang
Brush the egg yolk on top of the mashed potatoes
11. Tambahkan keju parut diatas
Add grated cheese on top of it
12. Dioven 375 derajat Farenheit sampai kekuningan
Oven 375 degree F until the top is brownish/yellowish

Sop Merah.. Yummy^_^(Tomato Soup)

1/2 kg lidah sapi, rebus sampai empuk lalu potong kecil, ox tongue,boiled and cut into small cubes
1 kaleng maling potong kecil2 & goreng, can of spam cut into small pcs and fry
2 biji dada ayam potong kotak2 kecil, pcs of chicken breast cut into small cubes
¼ kg udang, ½ lb shrimp
Sosis daging dipotong kecil2 & goreng, beef sausage cut into small pieces and fry
Jamur kuping, ear mushroom
Wortel dipotong kecil2, carrots cut into small pieces
Seledri, Celery
Kacang polong, peas

6-8 siung bawang putih dipotong2, garlic, chopped
1 bawang bombay dipotong2 , onion, chopped
3-4 bj tomat direbus, pcs of tomatoes – boil
1 kaleng saus tomat, can of tomato paste
1-2 sdm kaldu ayam, tbs chicken stock
1 sdm anggur merah / arak, tbs cooking wine
1 sdm saus inggris, tbs worcestershire sauce
1 sdt pala, tsp nutmeg
½ std merica, tsp pepper
Gula, garam, sugar and salt
Kecap asin, soy sauce
1 ½ sdm tepung maizena campur dgn air, tbs cornstarch mixed with water



Instructions:
1. Ayam & udang di marinate dengan kecap asin dan merica, biarkan beberapa menit
Marinate chicken with soy sauce and pepper
2. Panaskan minyak, masukkan bawang putih dan bawang bombay, kemudian ayam dan udang
Add garlic and onion into preheated oil. Add the marinated chicken, and shrimp
3. Masukkan perasan air dari tomat
Strain the tomato. Bring in the liquid from the boild tomatoes
4. Masukkan kaldu ayam dan wortel dan lidah sapi beserta air rebusan
Add in chicken stock and carrots and ox tongue with boiled water
5. Masukkan spam, sosis, jamur, saus tomat, gula, garam, pala
Add in spam, sausage, mushrooms, tomato paste, sugar, salt and nutmeg
6. Setelah wortel lunak, masukkan seledri dan kacang polong
When the carrots is soft, add in celery and peas
7. Masukkan maizena
Add in the cornstarch

Old friend

Gimana2 yg namanya orang tuh butuh temen alias sosialisasi..
Nah hari ini aq ketemu ama temen lama. Alo Diah.. dah lama nggak jalan bareng ma kamu, he3x, seneng benget..
Kita tuh udah temenan pas SMA kelas 1, sama2 1-F di Frateran.. Pertemanan kita tuh bisa dibilang deket, soalnya kita punya hobi yg sama, suka dengan namanya jurnalistik(sampe2 satu eskul n pas kelas 2 kita aktiv banget sampe kepilih buat jadi pengurus, Biasanya tuh rata2 kalo Diah jadi ketua, aq jadi wakil/sekretaris ato bendahara), suka benda2 keren, suka yg namanya buku, pernak pernik lucu(dari pensil warna, crayon, ketas2, dll) Trus ternyata nasib tetep nggak misahin kami di bangku kuliah ternyata kita sama2 satu kampus, n satu jurusan pula.. he3x tapi setelah selesai kul kita sempat lama nggak ketemu, soalnya aq ke Jakarta..
Nah, hari ini aq janjian ketemuan ama Diah di GE(Gramedia Expo), nah aq sampe dulu ceritanya n sempat ngeliat2 bentar, trus nggak lama flx aq bunyi..
"Haloo, alo.. dimana kamu.."
kresek2"udah "kresek2"di depan Yus"kresek2"kamu dimana?"
"ok, ok aq ke depan deh."tut..
aq cepet2 ke depan trus tengok kanan kiri.. kok nggak ada ya..
Diah pake baju apa ya, duhh bego banget nggak tanya.. Udah telpon aja pikir aq cepet2, aq ambil flx lalu tekan redial, nyambung.. tapi kok aq nelpon Kuma CP, aduhh salah pencet, buru2 matiin trus nelpon lg, n kali ini no Diah yg bener.. Susah masuk, busy..
Setelah beberapa lama akhirnya nyambung..
"Diah kamu dimana?"
"Aq didepan pintu masuk nih.."
Setelah sama2 tengok kiri kanan ternyata kita cuma beda beberapa langkah, he3x
Sampe2 diceletukin satpam"Mbak2, deketan kok masih telpon2nan", aduhhh malunya..
Setelah itu kita masuk ke dalam, liat2 buku, first impression, ternyata tempatnya GE tuh..LUAS, he3x banyak buku.. wow.. he3x
Aq beli buku lho, he3 terbitan Gagas media Love Fool(kayaknya lucu^_^)
Setelah muter2 sambil ngobrol2 kita sempat nyangkut di 1 stan, yg nawarin Electronic Dictionary(drolling2.. tes2.. ngilel.. mau..) menarik banget.. bisa 5 bahasa Indonesia, Inggris, Mandarin, Korea, Jepang, trus kelebihannya banyak, bisa touch screen, bisa buat latihan tulisan mandarin segala, bisa bersuara, kapasitas memory sampe4-8giga, bisa nyimpan gambar, bisa nyetel mp3 n mp4.. wua.. pokoknya banyak.. TAPI.. yg bikin aq ilang selera tuh harganya.. MAHALLLL, 2,6 juta.. hiks2..
Aq bisa ngeliat kl Diah juga tertarik buat beli, tapi aq pikir mahal, walau tuh mbak2 bilang ini yang barangnya dah mau abis n dll, tapi kalo akhirnya tuh barang nggak kepake kan sayang, setelah itu aq bilangin Diah buat pikir2 dulu n lihat2 yang lain.
Nah abis dari sana ternyata kita sama2 lapen n berhubung disana nggak ada tempat makan yg menurut kita nyaman kita pindah tempat, ke TP..
Nah di jalan.. aq dapet telepon.. LILY di caller ID, wah nggak biasanya nih pikir aq, nggak pake lama aq angkat,"Alo li, ada apa?Tumben"Sampil nyetir..
"YUUSSS, mobil lu bannya kempes, lu di depan Xerox kan.. Di jalan Basuki Rahmat.."
"Ehh.. Iya.. Iya.."kaget aq, dikasih tau kayak gini..
Abis gitu aq tembel ban di deket Citibank, apes bener pikir aq..
Setelah aq selesai nambal ban, baru deh nyusul Diah di TP, Diah sempat kuatir sih, soalnya kok aq nggak sampe2, abis aq kasih tau kalo ban aq bocor, malah Diah ngerasa kuatir banget..(Diah.. lua nggak beruhah, dari SMA bawaannya suka panik, lu tuh baek deh^_^)
Kita akhirnya makan di Link cafe, aq makan nasi goreng jawa, diah pesen galantin+nasi putih, minumnya.. TEH dong.. he3x
Aq sempat sms ma Lily, thanks banget ya li.. Lu baek banget deh^^
Setelah kenyang kita nggak langsung cabut jalan, setelah ngobrol ngarul ngidul, tentang kerjaan, potensi kerjaan, bayaran kerja(yg layak dan sepantasnya^^), tentang cowok, mak comblang,etc.. pokoknya buanyaaakk deh^_^
Kita baru cabut n jalan2, kita tuh sama 2 satu hobi, dan bisa dibilang punya taste yg mirip..(Senangnya ada yg satu hati ma aq^^)
Bisa dibilang kita tuh suka window shopping, soalnya ngeliat doang nggak beli, he3x.. Tapi seneng^^PUAS BANGET!!
Setelah keliling2 n meriksa semua lantai SOGO, kikiki.. akhirnya kita mutusin buat pulang..
Thank ya Diah 4 this lovely day.. sometimes me must go 4 another window shopping..^_^